My Heart Scare

My Heart Scare
Thursday night, November 20, 2014, I lay in bed and a sudden jerk of pain hit my thigh then my knee. I prayed and ignored the pain because I knew the next day would be Friday my day to deliver Meals on Wheels, something I have grown to love. The next day the pain had not dissipated but I remembered my husband had used a cane before his death. I hurried and found his cane. I was not about to let a little pain stop me from doing what I loved to do. Also, I remembered talking to a classmate who lives in Ohio. She told me she had to walk with a cane and her friends up there told her she didn’t need it . She told me she had told them if they were a shame to walk with her, just to go on. There was no shame in her cane. We both had a hardy laugh. At the time, needing a cane was as far from my mind as the earth is from Mars.
With the aid of my cane, I went through my daily routine without a hitch. That afternoon, I called my friend in Ohio and told her I had hot news. I am sure she thought I had heard some juicy news from our hometown that I could not wait to share. I wanted to tell her, I too used  cane. I’m sure I disappointed her with my news.
I went ahead with my day until I remembered I needed to go to the bank and take care of some business. That is when I miss my husband the most. During his lifetime, I could just say I haven’t taken care of this or that Richard. Would you please take care of it? There was no one to tell do this or that, therefore I had to do it myself.
I went to the bank and near the conclusion of my business not only were my hip and my knee hurting but I also had chest pains. At that time I figured maybe I should see a doctor. I knew the Doctor’s Office would be closed. I left the Bank and went straight to Emergency. The Emergency was full to capacity. Having Blue Cross/Blue Shield Medicare paid off. The wait was not as long for me as it was for some of the others. There were cripple people, car accidents, some had coughs or pneumonia.
I had a teacher when I was working on my health certificate who was upset because I had PEEHIP supplied by Blue Cross/ Blue Shield. I worked for 26 years with the City Board of Education for Insurance with Blue Cross/ Blue Shield. Her children had to pay for their own insurance. They owned their own business. They chose not to work for someone else. Every day we make choices.
Emergency admitted me into the hospital. Saturday afternoon I was released with instructions to follow up with my personal physician. The hospital run all sorts of test on me but was unable to find the source of my pain. I am not super woman. I believe the culprit of my distress will be found, because our Father who art in Heaven gives us doctors and the sense to pray. He also gives us sense to know when to use each. Of course we must always pray and not faint. Even though I sometimes wonder what it is like having the powers of a Wonder Woman? It would be nice if she were real.
Proverbs 4: 23
Keep thy heart with all diligence, for out of it (the heart) are the issues of life. Some issues can be ignored and some cannot. Someone and I don’t know who and I don’t care to know. This unknown person said I was by-sexual. I do not care to know why this report went out nor who put it out. There is only one thing I can say. It is untrue. I am not against anyone for any reason. I do not have a heaven or a hell where I can send anyone. The person who said that should first get the pole out of their own eye before they can take the speck out of anyone’s eye. I suppose that is God’s way of knowing if I can take fame if it ever came.
I thought I would throw myself into church. To my horror, I discovered things there were not as I had hoped.I was accused of unspeakable things. Again I say I have neither a heaven nor a hell to send anyone to therefore, I will not pray for revenge. As I lay In bed thinking about this article, I remembered the scripture: “revenge is mine, saith the Lord.” I was really shocked to discover there were those actually praying for my demise. I did not worry about that because I serve a God who will not answer that prayer. I’m sure the zealots praying that prayer believe they are right. I do not know where this is coming from. I am not a person believing in legalism, however, I do kept the ten commandments. Maybe keeping silent will make bad things said about you go away. I’m not sure about that. I have not strayed away from my topic. Un-trues, will cause a bad heartache.

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